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I'm so very tired, and I don't know why.  well, I guess not sleeping much for the past several nights may be catching up with me, but it feels more than that.  A bone-deep fatigue that makes me too tired to find food for dinner, too tired even to go to the little chinese place to get  my $1.15 bowl of eggdrop soup, too tired at the moment to dress for bed because it would mean dealing with reaching behind me to undo the snaps of my bra, and lifting my legs high enough to step out of my pants.  I made it home to the driveway and sat for 20 minutes before being able to come in.  I fed the cats and cleaned their litter box, and am not just sitting on the edge of my bed, using the computer because it was on and already open to LJ.

I'm going to bed now, or at least lying down.  Eventually my bladder will force me to get up, and I'll change then. 

I'm so very tired of coping.  I wish he would give me permission to stop.

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Just realized what the date is. I'm so wrapped up in my own stuff that I forgot about how much worse so many have it, and didn't even think of the things I should have been thinking of today.

I suck.